Day 1, I think

It's not as terrible as I thought. I worked out, I only cheated a couple of times. I need to drink more water and work out a bit more, but I'm proud that I started.
It's about so much more than willpower. I had a fight with my friend today and just wanted to eat and eat. But, I didn't, and that's what counts.
I'm looking forward to more. I think I can do this. I need some sort of mantra to make me feel beautiful.
I got in a big fight with the best friend. He read over an sms with an ex of mine where they were calling me names and he said I shouldn't interact with that ex. I feel like I'm nothing, and I get off on being treated as such. I feel like I am trash, scum below the barrel.
But he cried, so I felt bad. Maybe I'm worth a tad more than I realize.
Goodnight.