EpicFAIL

I'm realizing that it's hard to stay in focus and work on myself when I don't have a support team. I don't have anyone to recognize me for what I've done right. I don't have that in any aspect of my life, now this. Now weight loss. I'm all alone and it's terrifying. All I have is more people reinforcing the fact that I'm a bit worthless.
Oh well, I have to do it, even if I'm all alone.

Silhouette

I like my body.
It's the honest truth, I like my body. I like the structure of my curves, and where my food goes when I eat it. I like getting stares at the metro, and having people ask if certain parts of my body are real. I like the potential. I like that I know that I'll be even more stunning when I lose these pesky extra pounds I've gained...
I'm at my heaviest. And it's scary.
My best friend and I are tackling it, now. I'm scared, and I sometimes wonder if I can do it, if I'm good enough, but I know I can deep down.
I feel like even though it's the most apparent, my weight is the least of my issues. I have so much going on inside my head. It's so strange to have perfect self image, but shitty self confidence.
I look forward to this journey. My goal is a year of active blogging, at least every few days. Welcome!